i got so many nice sms today, and last night. i cant really tell who sent what, but still cant really erase the joy of receiving it. i wonder why lately, there's not so many friends that was online. find it rather irritating, i feel so lonely.

went to budi's house yesterday. there's only chandra there. after church, we had lunch at eaton, bought some fruits [hell yeah!! fruits!!], then watched lotr together. it was fun. we had lots of deep talks together, shared about life and the process of beliving every single thing that you thought it was from God. not to mention, that we also talked about budi's old life.. hehehe, pretty shocking!!

aldi started to call me again. started to asked me out again. sigh.. not now!! dont feel like going out with him anymore.

i miss him tremendously! and he's sick right now. huhu, wish i can hold him in my arms and try to make him feel better.

[eating fried rice from La Bodega Grill, mix it with McD's french fries, and listening to Maroon 5, Harder to Breathe]

i feel a 'disturbance in the force', but cant really tell what it is..
in these times, the urge to smoke is unbearable ...